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My mom passed away giving birth to me; I was solely raised by my dad. He raised me as a single parent cuz he never remarried for reasons I do not know. However, unfortunately, I lost him at the age of 29 after I just completed my university studies. Dad died in a car acc-dent when he went for business in Gabon; we tried, but it was somehow complicated to transport the bø’dy from that country, so he was buried there.
After a few months, I landed myself a good job with very good salary as a banker. I later got married to my long-term girlfriend 8 months later. After a year, she got pregnant but sadly couldn’t make it out of the labor room; she passed away after giving birth to our daughter. I was heartbroken & I mourned her for 3 yrs.
I met a beautiful lady, Lizeth, whom I dated for a yr; she got pregnant while we were dating, & I decided to make our relationship legal. We got married when she was 2 months pregnant; 7 months later, she unfortunately passed away after childbirth. I was devastated. I loved this woman with everything in me. She was a kind woman; she understood & loved my daughter like there was no tomorrow, & now she passed away, leaving me with another daughter to take care of all by myself. I mourned her for 4 yrs.
At some point, family intervened & advised that I needed a wife who could look after my kids & also be a companion. I gave it a though & decided to open my heart to love again. Then I proposed to Sonia, my current wife. We didn’t actually date for long since she’s my colleague at work. We were already fond of each other as workmates. I already knew her well enough, & she knew me in & out, too; most importantly, she loves & was so fond of my daughters. She accepted my proposal.
We stayed for almost 2 years without an issue until God finally blessed us. I was so happy when doctors confirmed that she was carrying a son. We bought all the necessary items & were expecting our child. We had so many plans for him, & the thought of his coming was our everyday joy; we just couldn’t wait for his arrival. My wife would usually pick out a favorite dress she bought for him & just be feeling excited & smiling to herself, & sometimes even sleep off while holding the little dress to her chest
2 days ago, I was called up while at work & was told, my wife was in labor & had been rushed to the hospital. I quickly left to the hospital at once. When I got there, our family doctor was smiling at me while congratulating me; I was so happy, & demanded to see them at once. My son was brought to me, only for the doctor to calmly tap me on my right shoulder, asking me to take heart cuz the mother did not make it.
Please, What have I done, & why is all this happening to me? I can’t remember whom I’ve wronged in the past, or Could this be karma playing on me cuz of my mom’s dth after giving birth to me 44 years ago? I was just a fêtus in the womb; I knew nothing & would never intentionally hurt my own mother. I grew up without a mother’s love, every day of my life, I’ve wished I experienced the love of a mother.
I wish to get married & also live happily with my wife & kids as a happy family, I’m successful & more than financially capable to take care of a family but as it stands, I’m tired, confused, & devastated, never knew what dpr”sion feels like until now😭🤦🏼♂️” CLICK HERE TO SEND YOUR OPINION
